Some Wise Words in my Old Age: Whenever you think there's no one, there's always someone

 Dearest readers, 

For those of you that do not know, today is my 20th birthday! I am truly excited for what today is going to bring. Here's the agenda:

CE Winner Announcement
Lunch outside in the Quad with all my best friends
Phillies game
Courts

How fabulous is that?!

I feel wiser by the minute. My discovery of the day is whenever you think there's no one, there's always someone. I've always disliked how close I get with very many people. It makes me feel like I don't have closest friends. But I never realize how awesome of a support system that is! I have people in so many places. Whenever I think I'm lonely and have no one to call on, I absolutely do! It's a weird feeling when you have the best day ever surrounded by people who love you but then when you're alone you feel entirely alone. But that is never ever true. I might be biased because it's my birthday and I'm getting all these nice texts, but they really remind me that I am loved, I am thought of, and I matter. 

Something else I'd like to highlight is that someone (Kristijana, very cool person) told me I'm really nice. Like I know that really holds no weight at all but it's quite cool to know how you're perceived by others. Especially when it's good things. And when it's exactly what you dream of being known for! If I could be anything in this world, I want to be kind. And I really hope I'm on the way there. 

I am so incredibly grateful for the family I was given and the family I have made. I truly would not be the person I am if it weren't for them. My triumphs and my failures have built me into a strong, confident (working on this though), and thoughtful person, and I can't wait so see where life takes me next. It's been a long road certainly, but a road worth traveling on. When I was really young I had a massive fear of death and being not alive. Then in high school I could never imagine myself growing old and getting a job and doing things you do when you're old. I'm back on the never dying thing. I want to be around forever if I can. It's strange how your mind can switch up on you with matters like that. You'd think it'd be wired to want to be around forever?

On that note...

Forever & always,

Alyssa, 20 years old

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